The Slump

Or that's what I called it at first...

I haven’t written for a while.

It became a thing.

I called it The Slump.

And, I called myself lazy.

But, when I sat down to reflect, I noticed that there were other things spinning in my orbit.

The list wasn’t exhaustive, but it left me exhausted.

There was a work thing.

It lasted a few months. It made me scan job sites. It made me feel discombobulated.

It made me re-analyse certain things about myself.

And for a while it was an open territory without a map.

There was a family thing.

It lasted a few months. It made me angry. It made me compile a dossier. It made me go into attack mode.

And for a while it was an open territory without a map.

There was a car thing.

It’s ongoing. It made me see how vital having a car is to my independence and income. It made me ask for help. My husband has taken on some of the weight.

And for a while now, it has been an open territory without a map.

All these things have been going on, and I have been dealing with them.

Did I sometimes waste time? Probably.

Did I have enough energy to do something else? Probably not.

Could I have written? I guess.

Did I want to? No.

Is that laziness? I don’t think so anymore.

Am I getting closer to writing again?

Well, I’m here right now.

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